I’m ready to do All The Things but my body is not ready yet… And I’m not emotionally ready to do my non-physical tasks yet.
I saw 1984 (as a play) tonight and am traumatized. It was very good, but not at all enjoyable.
Anxiety flare-up is making everything TERRIBLE.
It is only Wednesday.
Second complaint: Everyone is very anxiety ridden around here. Anxiety needs to fuck off.
CA passed a law yesterday reclassifying Uber drivers as employees instead of independent contractors. Now I’m definitely going to lose my health insurance and probably scheduling flexibility and some money, too. Sorry, meerkat, anxiety here too.
I am very much expected to be at work today but I’m barely functional. Considering sending a mannequin in my place. Or taking my sleep mask and gluing googly eyes to the front and just hoping no one notices I’m actually sleeping.
I’m really enjoying the part of work where I sip tea and chat and play on my phone… But realnwork starts in seconds
I can’t function but my calendar is full. I need a second me to cover everything please.
My footwear options are poop soaked shoes and shoes that hurt. It’s too cold to switch to sandals and my hands don’t work well enough to wear boots.
Sandals and socks to superstore and then Uggs of the fakest variety
I vacuumed several rugs and behind and under furniture - now I am hot and sweaty. Cue Tony Victor - now there is a bigger area rug down for Lord Fuzzington. The wood floors are too slippery for him to walk comfortably when his arthritis flares.
My chicken, chorizo, and chickpeas w/ fire roasted tomatoes was mostly bones. The non-bones were delicious, but I would happily eat a deep fried Shetland pony right about now.
I was tired of fighting/managing my pregnancy pillow every night, so last night I slept without it. I slept even more like crap than usual. As a result, I started the morning off all mopey and weepy. Anyone who makes any mention of “sleeping before the baby gets here” may or may not be endangering their physical well being.
At least when the baby is OUTSIDE YOU someone else can be assigned to supervise it while you sleep. Right now it’s all you no matter what and that suuuuucks.
Not to mention, in theory I will some day be able to lay down and feel comfortable and not have my body hurt.
I don’t know anything about astrology but I get the impression that something is probably in retrograde or something?
A year ago, I got a letter from the grad student union saying that I could be eligible to have my tuition refunded because people in my dept were denied tuition waivers that were given to all other depts for the same level of work and research. I just got word that while most of my classmates are getting money, I won’t be. This is because I started a consulting firm and worked 50+ hours a week to pay for school rather than getting loans. I have no loans to pay off, so eff me. I don’t count.
I mean, it would be nice to get the $30k back, but I never expected to have it in the first place, so no point getting pissed. But still, eff them for excluding me because i worked harder rather than playing helpless.
No one here seems to appreciate how much fooking work I’ve taken on and executed so now I have zero desire to do anything.
I keep having to deal with other people’s possessions for them, because they won’t/can’t and if no one deals with them it’s going to affect me adversely (like, potentially to the tune of $800).