Well, just got an answer to my “will I still feel ovulation without the IUD” question. Ouch!
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MRI results are in.
“Multiple right upper quadrant peritoneal implants consistent with suspected endometriosis.”
Also a 3cm endometrioma… Inside an ovary? 
Certainly conversations with multiple doctors forthcoming.
I’m feeling relief, vindication and fear, dread in equal measures, I think.
Spiced up by jabs of pain in my liver area every time I breathe in or stretch.
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I’m glad you’re getting answers. I’m sorry the answers are sucky.
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Thanks. 
I think I prefer this to the other outcomes I considered (“we see nothing, you probably have normal cramps and a psych problem,” or “we found something but it’s def not endo, it’s worse”).
I still have questions on specifics and fear the answers, but at least I know overall this is treatable.
Also, I liked the surgeon I talked to, and am very very fortunate to have bomb insurance right now, and recognize the gaping absence of price related concerns.
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I’ve had two mornings of shadowy maybe-lines again. The last time this happened, it turned out to be nothing (the third day it was just stark white again and never was fully visible as a for-sure line the first two). I gave myself a shot of Lovenox this morning just in case.
It could turn out to be nothing. It could turn out to be a baby. It could turn out to be another loss but this time with the added fun of traveling. It could turn out so many ways but only one of them good. I have grown cynical and do not have hope. Only a pile of pee sticks and a box of syringes and the knowledge that tomorrow will always come and, with it, more information.
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Hoping either nothing or the good thing for you.
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Spotting at 8dpo and very cranky about it. Everything about this has been short, from period to follicular phase to luteal phase and I neither understand it nor like it and it makes me nervous.
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Googling implantation bleeding send help
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Step away from the keyboard, spotting can mean anything and nothing. FWIW I am 1 for 4 on implantation spotting and it might not even be real.
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From nerd to nerd: information cannot travel faster than light or back in time. When you can know, you will know.
Go for a walk.
Drink some water.
Read a book.
Do some yoga.
Play a game.
Get a snack.
Pet a cat.
Watch this: https://www.instagram.com/reel/CXMC3WrJ21s/
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That was a very good IG post thank you!
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On another note, I need a hobby so I’m not thinking about TTC all the time. C’mon hyperfixation… Switch!
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Oooh do you want hobby ideas or are you all set there? My interests outpace my energy and I have some good ones I want to get into.
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I basically need someone to tell me what hobby to do because I am paralyzed be choice.
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I know you’ve mentioned homesteading stuff! Option 1, space permitting: hand-raising mini dwarf goats. Heavily socializing them to people and clicker training them. Teaching them to either go on hikes with people and carry their stuff, or to be emotional support goats for people to visit when they want. Or both! Depends on the goat.
Option 2, indoor variety: get really into cakes. Make a fancy cake every week for a year. My internet friend? Acquaintance? Folu did this, and her cakes are bananas: https://www.instagram.com/notfolu/?hl=en
Option 3, limited energy option: listen to every Agatha Christie mystery. Mentally rank them by how well the happy endings hold up in 2021. Figure out the formula for who did it and feel pleased with yourself.
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I love all of these and I will immediately begin looking into them.
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Just dropping some goat book links here, so with them as you wish…
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The big hurdle to goats is we need to put up our fence! Our current one is a 4’ chain link and it won’t hold up to the ups a goat has.
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This is part of my barrier too: we’d have to upgrade the fence, and I simply don’t want to know how much that will cost. We have some trees in the way that we would have to take out, and I do know how much that costs, and I don’t like it.
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The silly thing is I bought all the fencing months ago. And we haven’t had the energy to do old fence tear down or new fence setup.
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